Just letting it out.

I can't help but think that before I told DOUCHE BAG that I never want to see or hear from him again, that I should've asked all the questions that are still floating in my head....
Hmm. Don't get me wrong I'm not saying I wish we were together or anything to that affect at all. But I just think maybe I should've asked. Then again maybe it's better I didn't ask him, I mostly would not have liked the answers. Haha.

I'll just post them here and maybe I won't think 'bout them anymore. (:
Hopefully the hurt that hurt that I'm feeling will go away too. I don't even
know why I'm hurting, I'm fucking angry then anything. Haha.
I guess the two go hand in hand huh?

Here goes...

-Why wouldn't you just tell me the truth?
-Do you enjoy breaking my heart even more then you already have?
-Do you even realize I can't see or speak to half of my family because of you?
-How do you think I feel, that you proved them all right, when I had faith in you and trust in you.
-Why wouldn't I learn the first time you did this to me?
-How dare you think that I wouldn't find out! Do I look like a fucking idiot to you?
-How many times have we been through this shit? How much longer were you going to continue
to just lie to me, telling me you love me, that we'll get through this?
-Why would we be "just friends" and try to "fix our own issues" when all your doing is talking to
other chicks and dragging me along? How in the fuck is that going to help us you piece of shit?
-Why wouldn't you just be a man, like you claim to be, and step the fuck up, tell the damn truth?
-Do you realize how much I've lost because of you?
-Why didn't I realize back when I told you I had trust issues and you said, "I take care of my girls"....
girlSSSSS! You said girls, in the plural form, I guess I didn't take it literally, but apparently I should have.
-What did you really fucking do with the first chick? Fuck? Suck, Lick? Cause I know you didn't just kiss her.

-Was it something I did? Or are you just a complete fucking ruthless, heartless, asshole?
-If you had these intentions, and I think you did, to do what you've been doing from the beginning, why
get so close with me? We shared our deepest secrets and thoughts that we couldn't tell anyone else in the world, with each other and for what?
-I would've never thought the person who I've felt the closest with would do me so fucking dirty. I guess your just another life lesson huh?

 Anyways,
 that's all I have for the most part, I'm sure I'll add in more when they come around.

I do feel just the tiniest bit better already (: