You see, I always hear people say how they are so fortunate to have a sister older, younger, not much a difference. I have yet to be able to say that, and highly doubt I will be able to in this lifetime. I have a sister 'older' depending on how some people look at 'age'. I believe she is very young as far as her soul, her mind, just everything. Although technically she's seven years older then myself. If I had a choice, would I have chosen this exact human being? No, I wouldn't have. My 'sister', I honestly feel embarssed to even acknowledge that she is my family, my blood. You can think whatever thoughts your thinking, I don't blame you. When I hear or read, I guess you'd say, someone speaking badly of their family I always wonder how can someone think that way about their own flesh and blood. Well I do not, okay I rarely, think that these days. My sister, let's give her a name, Cruella, that's right Cruella Deville, I'm tired of this 'sister' stuff. Hm, where was I? Before I take you back, back in time that is. Let me express my version of what I always heard of what a sister, sister relationship was like. Being able to share clothes, talk about boys, shopping together, giving each other make-overs, etc. Things like that.
Our first 'sisterly' moment I was, I'm going to say maybe two years of age. Cruella thought it'd be humorous if she fed me poop. Yes, my own feces. I know, being only two I am most likely not to recall this sad, sad experience, which I thankfully do not! But overall it happened. Now for what reasons would your sibling want to do that? A joke? Ha ha ha. So comical. Anyways, back to what I was saying, another traumatizing experience would be when I was four or five years old. This particular situation I do remember. To this day Cruella will not admit to what I know she did. I was sexually abused by her. Mkay, not her actually but dammit she was there, and she made it happen. I know, I know. Wow, oh my gosh, you poor thing. Actually I don't really know if that's how you or anyone would react, but still. Thanks but no thanks, I do not want your sympathy. I just need to get my thoughts out of this overloading brain of mine. Haha.
Cruella has never, and I mean never been happy. She's always been the black sheep out of the five kids. Frankly, I could care less. She's not just the normal kinda bully. Cruella is far more advanced then that. Even now that were older she still must find ways to sabotage my life. She was gone for five or so years, but she came back. Damn, what a mistake THAT was mama. I'll give the short version. Cruella, problems with family. Mama, com move in with us. My goodness, within about one month BOOM, she's here. Good greif I knew it when she first stepped foot into my house, it was going to be diasterous. Her unhappiness starts with her boyfriend. What a sour, sour apple he is. Then her job, well I guess I should say the job she got fired from. Her pills. Numerous medications she takes daily. Which consits of anti-aniexty, anti-depressients, sleep aides, pain killers (for what injury would that be?) and many more that are hard to understand. So anyways she comes into the house, her and my mother dislike each other enough already, and gee wizz why would you allow her to move in?!?!?! Hm. So she tries to turn my mother against my boyfriend, my brothers against my boyfriend. Only one out of the three turned. :/ Cruella purposely acts like the devil to my younger brother, whom has to deal with enough bullshit. Not only do they move in, they take over the house. She makes every little thing hers. Now Cruella has made me and my brother disappear (with my father). My mother went to jail for five days. The whole family, is a fucking wreck. Believe it or not there's more, I just stated the most recent events that have taken place. All of this, because of her. Hopefully karma will catch up with her one day. But when you think your sister's bad, just because she stole your favorite skirt or something small, I hope my words come into mind and you think twice of how your sister CAN be.
Our first 'sisterly' moment I was, I'm going to say maybe two years of age. Cruella thought it'd be humorous if she fed me poop. Yes, my own feces. I know, being only two I am most likely not to recall this sad, sad experience, which I thankfully do not! But overall it happened. Now for what reasons would your sibling want to do that? A joke? Ha ha ha. So comical. Anyways, back to what I was saying, another traumatizing experience would be when I was four or five years old. This particular situation I do remember. To this day Cruella will not admit to what I know she did. I was sexually abused by her. Mkay, not her actually but dammit she was there, and she made it happen. I know, I know. Wow, oh my gosh, you poor thing. Actually I don't really know if that's how you or anyone would react, but still. Thanks but no thanks, I do not want your sympathy. I just need to get my thoughts out of this overloading brain of mine. Haha.
Cruella has never, and I mean never been happy. She's always been the black sheep out of the five kids. Frankly, I could care less. She's not just the normal kinda bully. Cruella is far more advanced then that. Even now that were older she still must find ways to sabotage my life. She was gone for five or so years, but she came back. Damn, what a mistake THAT was mama. I'll give the short version. Cruella, problems with family. Mama, com move in with us. My goodness, within about one month BOOM, she's here. Good greif I knew it when she first stepped foot into my house, it was going to be diasterous. Her unhappiness starts with her boyfriend. What a sour, sour apple he is. Then her job, well I guess I should say the job she got fired from. Her pills. Numerous medications she takes daily. Which consits of anti-aniexty, anti-depressients, sleep aides, pain killers (for what injury would that be?) and many more that are hard to understand. So anyways she comes into the house, her and my mother dislike each other enough already, and gee wizz why would you allow her to move in?!?!?! Hm. So she tries to turn my mother against my boyfriend, my brothers against my boyfriend. Only one out of the three turned. :/ Cruella purposely acts like the devil to my younger brother, whom has to deal with enough bullshit. Not only do they move in, they take over the house. She makes every little thing hers. Now Cruella has made me and my brother disappear (with my father). My mother went to jail for five days. The whole family, is a fucking wreck. Believe it or not there's more, I just stated the most recent events that have taken place. All of this, because of her. Hopefully karma will catch up with her one day. But when you think your sister's bad, just because she stole your favorite skirt or something small, I hope my words come into mind and you think twice of how your sister CAN be.
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