Fuuuuuuuuuckin A.

So, I haven't blogged in quite awhile. Sadly. Maybe that's partly why I've been going crazy lately. Ha. all my thoughts are crammed in my brain. Well okay let's see, I've started school, I'm only taking three classes this semester. I am still with Bum for the most part. Were not exactly official but whatever I don't mind cause that's how we want it. And it's working out nicely! ;D

I had sex with my brother's friend. Very uh interesting night, definitely fun, but interesting. Lol. He's a bigger guy like 6 foot something and probably 250. Out of the norm for me, weight wise, but oh well. I didn't mind and nether did he. My brother has hooked up with two of my friends. My sister hooked up with his other friend. So I guess I just jumped on the ban wagon huh? Ugh. :/ Whatever though. I also had sex with this friend of a friend. It was nice, kinky ahaha, he too was about 6'3 and a little thinner but it was great. I used protection for both so don't think I'm just some little hoe. Hoe's could care less about condoms. Poor girls, and boys, so ignorant.

Anyways, were getting evicted. That's always fun. I wonder how my mother has not paid rent of 2 months....? I think she's on drugs. I mean I don't know for sure, but where else could this money be going? Not to food or gas cause were always low on that shit. It sucks cause she'll most likely ask me for my money from the school, and I'm trying to save it to get a vehicle so I can rely on my own damn self and not use her car...But what can I do? Get kicked out for not buying food for everyone? Everyone being, her, me, my older brother, little brother, older sister and her son. Seven people...that's a lot of mouths to feed. And my sis's kid eats like, a cow, so does my little bro. They shouldn't either they're overweight for their age an height. I looked it up!

Father isn't sending any child support, even though he is ordered by law, due to the fact that mother has no time aside from work to go to a courthouse in a city about an hour drive from home, to get divorce papers for him. Bastard.

I hate this. I feel like I'm in some foggy daze, I know there's going to be an explosion soon but I don't have the drive to get away from here. At least not to just go move in with Bum. :/ Especially without a car cause what if we were to break up er whatever ya call an he tells me to get out? Oh okay honey, well can you drive me back to my mommies house? Pssssh, fuck that. Sorry not going anywhere without a car. cause a car can also be used as shelter, just in case ya know? Blah I gotta go get the kids from school.

I'll try to make it a point to at least write up something everyday so my brain can unload.

Till then. <3