October....

 So far is alright, I guess. Seems like time just keeps on flying. School is going good, home life is so-so. Little brother is still horrible, older sister is the same as him, older brother is like my best friend in this house besides my mom and sometimes she gets a stick up her bum, but not often. Me an Bum are doin whatever. Friend, boyfriend, lover, whatever.

I can't wait till Halloween it'll be fun :D One of my favorite holidays. I'm getting my costume tomorrow just not too sure what I will be though, I have some ideas but nothing concrete till I try it on an what not. I want to go to a few Halloween parties cause I've never been to one an I think it'll be exciting (:

 Tomorrow I'm going to a friends house, haven't seen her in like 5 months er something. So it should be niceee.

I've been smokin herb a lot lately to keep my head on straight, if I don't I get all stressed and that's never good. haha.

Well I should sleep, busy busy day tomorrow!
<3

Wish me luck ;D

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Lost

I feel so lost lately. I'm fucking up in school, kind of. My home life is almost intolerable. My relationship with Bum is all sorts of horrible..I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I know I need to leave with him but i can't. I don't know what's the problem, I love him don't I? He says I don't show it. I try, I really do but for some reason I'm so stuck in my own bullshit it's hard to be there for someone else who needs you. :(



Ahh, I don't know mannnn. Fuck where am I lately? I think I should stop smoking so much. ahah But it really helps except for the lazy part. Ha. Geez, I need to shape up!!!!

I can do this....right?

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