Geeez!!!! :D

Tomorrow I am going to get my first tattoo! I am super excited.
I've been feeling a little better today, yesterday wasn't too bad I guess.
But tomorrow is going to be great! Well I hope. Haha. I'm not letting anyone rain on my parade. :D

Wish me luck!

<3

 

On another note, I have my whole weekend planned which is nice cause usually I wouldn't lol. Especially since it's summer I want to have a nice eventful one before I start college.  (:

So Thursday Bum's going to come an spend the night, on Friday were waking up at the butt ass crack of dawn to go wait at the DMV to get my permit test taken care of. I don't know if I mentioned this but on the 17th, I think, I went in and FAILED it!! can you believe that? What a fucking idiot I know. It's just I let my nerves get the best of me and I didn't focus and ughh. Just blah. Anyways, so hopefully I'll have that shit taken care of on Friday then I'll be spending the night with him at his house, then I'll be going to a good friend's house and probably drink (: (First time in awhile) then we'll be going to my little brother's Karate belt ceremony on Sunday and on Monday were going to this awesome place, with beautiful scenery (perfect for pictures) with water falls huge green trees, not sure what kind lol. But yah. It'll be a good weekend I hope.
Too bad it's only an hour into Tuesday morning huh? But HEY that means I'm closer to getting my tattoo done!

(:

I'll let you know how it goes <3

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So lost

lately. My mood has been like a teeter totter. I'm up one second, down the next. I don't know what it is. I feel like I'm falling down this dark hole er somethinn. I can't figure out why I'm so fucking wrecked lately. I think 'm just complete shit, in every way. My self esteem has dropped dramatically. I'm going crazy haha. This shit is wack. I'm pushing everyone away. I'm curling up wanting to hide away from everyone. I'm always anxious or scared, waiting for something to happen. I'm just going insane over nothing. I'm just a huge fucking mess right now....And I have no idea how to get the fuck out of this slump. Ahhhh.


I'll get a grip on everything I just need to smoke some herb er something. Relax, take a deep breath, something.
Gah.

This sucks.

BLAHHH!

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Disgusted

Today, yesterday, day before that, an so on an so forth for the last two weeks about, I've been so disgusted with my face. I hate it. I have the worst urge to just try an cut it off. I really, really dislike my face lately. It's just so hideous, to me. I mean, I know I'm pretty but I just do not see the beauty. I looove my body, no question. I have beautiful legs an arms, my tits are great, my butt is, well alright haha. The only parts of my face that I do like would be my bright blue eyes and my nice little plump lips (: But the rest is just gross. Like my complexion, good grief. I don't have a bunch of zits er anything, granted I have my share of them just not in an uncontrollable sense. It's just that it's red in areas and there's just nothing about it that I find pretty. My nose, I don't even want to talk about it. My teeth good Lord, why have you damned me with such a nasty mouth? I hate this I really really do.

Ugh. Whatever. I guess I'll just have to get over it.

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