Here we go again....

Well holy fuck, look who it is.
Ahahah. You guessed it ME! :]


I haven't blogged in awhile.... Sorry. Not that it effected you that much, or at all for that matter. Haha.

So yah being 18 is pretty much the same as being 17 or 16 r whatever age. Except now, I get to say "I'll move the fuck out then" when my mother acts the way she does. The way I can't stand. It's getting close to intolerable lately. I wonder if it's menopause..It's crazy whatever it is. She's gotten a lot worse. So child like. So not the mama I remember. Not the same person at all. The way she acts makes me want to go out an just get fucked up. Which I'm really not trying to do. I actually quit smoking for about a week an a half straight, then I cheated an I've had a few puffs here an there. But I was drunk and high so I didn't REALLY count it, but then when I was sober I did cheat an take a few puffs, so yah...Now I just kinda messed it up. I'd much rather just smoke herb. But I don't like spending money on it lol. I usuallly just get smoked out. Ugh anyways, I think that now I'm not smoking (cigarettes) anymore, I'm so much more bitchy and irritable and annoyed so easily. I don't even miss the smoking I just miss the way it made me feel at ease. Even though it's something that can cause death eventually.

Ugh me an the Bum are all fucked up. I think he might be lying to me again. And I just can;t fucking handle that shit. I'm so lost on why I can't let him go, and just be alone or find someone else ya know? Blah. It's disastrous. But uh, yah there's not much else that's goin onnn.

I'll be graduating soon. Like 3 weeks. And I'm enrolled on college. I'll start in the fall. I'm pretty excited. I'm eligible to get all kinds of grants an aide an shit, so that's good. Lord knows I need it. Haha.

Alright well till next time.

:)